Welcome 2011!! I am welcoming this new year with major open arms, such a year of big stuff happening and I feel like a new woman too! I feel so truly blessed where our lives are going this year, our adoption of this little gal is just the high light of my life right now. I cannot wait to finalize this chapter and be able to officially call her ours! Although it already feels that way but to be able to give her her new name and our last name, it is just so exciting, I cannot wait until August or September comes! Something I have waited my whole life for our first child!
Along with this adoption my one and only little Sister is finally getting married and I am thrilled to death about this! It looks as though it could take place as well close to our adoption, so the end of Summer will be a busy one at that but oh so exciting! I am so happy for her and excited to get to help her through this time in her life too! Yay!
Our Baby girl, our Foster baby she is still in this waiting status and we are always praying for her and this situation to be ok! I can't fathom if it does not turn out ok for her and us so I just rely on God to get us through this with her, it just has to be ok, she has to stay with us, her sisters and be safe and loved that is just the only way about it! If I think about it too much I just worry myself sick, so I just focus on the good going on and trust it will be ok! Something that has been very hard for me in the past, letting it go!
But there is something that this year is also bringing and that is something I told myself had to happen this year! "The New Me" it is time! I have had a really rough time that last almost 4 years and have not focused on myself, stress and emotional ups and downs have really taken a toll on me and I decided with all of the wonderful changes in my life going on this year, this was it, time for our first child to come into our lives and time for this new Mommy to get fit and healthy! For our daughter, for my husband and specially for me, I am going to do it! I would have to say that my little Sis getting married really made me take the official plunge as well, thanks Sis for getting my butt in gear! :)
I have made some major personal goals and this has been a very hard struggle for me for a long time in my life actually so I know it will not be easy at all but I am determined to do it! I know I can! By the end of the summer I want to be someone new, someone so totally different and confident and I want to say I did it, through hard work, sweat and even tears if I have to, no one said it was easy, right!
So 2011 you are bringing me so much and I am going to do and change so much too, I can't wait, New Year, New Life and New Me!! Yay!
