Maybe I should write a book, I got so much to tell! :)

I sometimes think my brain is going to burst with all the things I want to express and tell! This experience is just so unbelievable. From the time Erin and I started trying to have a family and the years of disappointment and trying so many things and weighing our options and even wondering if this was the right way to go, I have never been more reassured than now, this is where we are supposed to be!
Some of you know how we got involved in this but let me tell you quickly, this is all a pretty amazing story, I think! So my husband and I had been going through the ups and downs of infertility issues and we decided to check into adoption, we knew after checking into private adoption, like fertility as well we could not afford much in these departments. We actually tried to make it happen on both ends but were unsuccessful. As we checked into Foster Adoption we started one summer to get certified through the county and then my husband got a new job, his career he has now, that we knew was going to be a great career and that had to take focus. So yet again we were back to noting in the family department. It wasn't until almost a year later, I came across an old friend and go figure Facebook, she and I had know each other since we were kids but had not talked in years. As I found out what she did as a career I could not believe it, she was a social worker! I told her about our struggles and our wishes to have a family more than anything, as she gave me info on so many routes we could take we decided to go with the agency she worked for and we got certified to become Foster Adopt parents a year ago this last August.
Now this was a tough year, very tough year, we did not want to Foster, we only wanted to adopt but as the year went on we allowed our selves to Foster and though it was hear breaking at times, I can say we would not be where we are at today if we would not have listened to our awesome social worker and did foster care! Now as for the girls their story of how they came to us gets even crazier! When we had precious new born baby P for 6 weeks, we were so sad he was going to be leaving us but I had honestly made peace with it, had decided life was going to go back to the way it was and we were going to get some rest, take a break and just breathe till the next situation, which we were hoping was only foster/adoption, we honestly did not want to do the foster thing again, we were very sad over baby P! But to our shocking surprise two days before he was leaving us, while I was in his meeting with the new Foster parents, one of the gals at the agency called our social worker a billion times and was frantic, she explained how she had submitted us for these two girls and because like so many times before not been picked she thought I will just do it because what are the odds! :) Now she is not technically supposed to be the one sending off our Home study but she felt it won't happen so why not, and guess what, we got picked of course, and she thought oh i am in so much trouble here! Well we all know how this turns out now, I have to say I could not love her more right now, LOL!
Receiving these two little girls was the hardest thing we ever went through for a few weeks, the first few days were the worst by far, baby P was still here and it was absolute HELL, sorry to say but it was. But I know why God wanted this, to ease our pain from loosing baby P.
Now with everything happening and us getting the info this last week that the parents are done and we will be getting to adopt them, I see how it all falls together, it was so hard to see for so many years what God wanted for us, I just couldn't understand for the longest time but now I do! I am so filled with happiness, love, feeling so blessed and felling so thankful, I thank God for these girls everyday, even the tough days!
I can't wait to some day read all of these blogs to the girls when they are old enough to understand all of this! They were dreamed of a long time ago! :)